struggling, mom cannot afford important medications

hey y'all. it’s been a while. i’ve been doing a lot better for the most part, but… back to taking care of my disabled mother again. she’s been trying to get a job but she hasn’t gotten anything back from them… and I’ve been working, but it’s just barely covered rent this month. i barely even have enough gas to get to work for the next two weekends.

her meds are exactly $128, if anyone can help, my cashapp is $ghostcelestite and my paypal is here

I'm gonna make a post with all of the 'stick figure violence' adjacent images I have. if anyone knows any similar ones I'm missing PLEASE SEND ME THEM. I have an unhealthy obsession with them.

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oh yeah here’s one I made a while back

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I’m gonna make a post with all of the ‘stick figure violence’ adjacent images I have. if anyone knows any similar ones I’m missing PLEASE SEND ME THEM. I have an unhealthy obsession with them.

oh yeah here’s one I made a while back

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OPPOSITE SIDES OF WANTING TO BE GOOD 

Japanese Breakfast, Slide Tackle // Mary Oliver, Wild Geese // Patti Smith, Woolgathering // Andrea Dworkin, Our Blood // Saul Bellow, Herzog // Mitski, I Will // Florence Welch, Useless Magic // Clarice Lispector, The Hour of the Star // Mary Oliver, Dogfish // John Steinbeck, East of Eden

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So much of the "advice" given to people with ADHD is just like

Step One: Become neurotypical

Habit formation part of the brain broken, advice ineffective

It took me until my twenties to build an actual tooth brushing habit. Years and years of parents hounding me to brush after breakfast & dinner, painful years having to also brush after lunch at school because braces (and mostly not doing it), years & years of 6 weeks managing each night then a long stretch of not brushing at all, years & years of frequent cavities...I had a years-long stretch of good brushing broken by one night being too exhausted to brush & just didn't brush at all for the longest while ever...

I could not tell you what exactly helped me transition, but I can tell you various pieces

  • I switched from trying to form a habit (which I feel stressed about doing and guilty if I don't do it or don't do it well) to trying a routine
  • Habit vs Routine: EG breakfast as a habit: make exact same meal each morning at same time regardless of hunger/activity/interest, feel bad about changing things up VS breakfast as a set of routines: cereal routine, get bowl, milk, cereal, spoon, pour, eat, take care of dishes; eggs routine: fry/scramble/whatever, eat, dishes; in a rush routine: grab 2 granola bars & a fruit & rush out
  • I bundled "habit" tootbrushing into the "going to bed" routine; routine is more flexible than habit & leaves room (and acceptance and no guilt) for adaptation
  • So like, standard I'm not exhausted just ordinary going to bed routine: go to bathroom, use toilet, wash hands, take out contacts, floss & brush teeth (thoroughly), put in retainer, then go to bed, lotion dry hands, turn out lights, sleep
  • Routine for when I'm dying of exhaustion: toilet, eyes/contacts, cursory brush, sleep
  • It took a long time, but eventually I wasn't having to remember to brush my teeth separately--I'd be tired and telling myself I'd let myself skip tooth brushing and initiate Goint To Bed and find myself brushing anyway because hey I'm in the bathroom there's the brush oh I'm just Going to Bed and brushing is a step of that
  • Call it a routine, call it task bundling, call it operative conditioning, whatever
  • I still don't *wash* dishes as a part of my Eat Meal routine which irks my housemates/parents but whatevs, 1 battle at a time

I want to close on a certain note, which is a How to ADHD book by a psych professional living with ADHD, and which I actually found helpful, but I am having trouble finding the title even searching back through all my reading history on 2 apps so....bear with me and I will either edit this post or reblog again. It was a book I heard about from @thebibliosphere first so I dunno maybe I'll chance the tumblr search function

Possibly KC Davis, How To Keep House While Drowning?

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sorry if youve answered this before but i know approximately jack and shit about communism + don't really have a background in reading theory/philosophy, etc. ...do you have any recommendations for stuff i could look into?

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i would recommend the principles of communism as a starting point. much like the communist manifesto, it was written in plain language and meant for mass distribution, so it doesn’t assume you have any specialised background knowledge. i think it makes a better starting point than the manifesto (which it’s essentially an early draft of), however, because the question-and-answer format is very intuitive. there’s also a quite good audiobook.

the idea that 'science' is an unmitigated and inherent social good---a politically neutral and universally beneficial process of accumulating knowledge---is wildly ahistorical and dangerously, wilfully ignorant of the role that science and its purveyors / practitioners have played in imperial and colonial expansion. warwick anderson went so far as to say that colonial medicine was better understood as a discourse of settlement than one of health promotion, & we can see this quite easily in, for example, french doctors' use of the nostalgia diagnosis to guide colonial policy in algeria in the 1830s, attempting to securely settle a french population there; or in the development of a science of 'water cures', spa treatments considered to mitigate the insalubrious effects of foreign (particularly tropical) environments, for which the french army by the 1890s granted routine medical leave because the 'health' of its soldiers was not a matter of individual interest but a state resource.

but medicine is in many ways an easy case when it comes to the relationship between science and the state; all too often we still seem reluctant to acknowledge, for example, the pursuit of economic botany and animal / plant breeding in the early modern period as contributors to discourses of acclimatisation and proto-eugenics, sciences that were given state financial support on these utilitarian grounds & not for any high-minded general pursuit of 'knowledge'; or the development of navigational instruments and knowledge from the 14th century or so onward as a project explicitly funded and intended to permit faster, cheaper, more reliable colonial exploration and travel; or the sheer amount of research in physics and chemistry that has been and is devoted to weapons development or natural resource extraction; or the promise of space travel as a further possibility for obtaining raw materials as well as for settlement---often marketed in terms and visual rhetoric explicitly comparing the 'space colony' to its terrestrial precursor: 'the final frontier', depicted as both lush tropical paradise & as rugged american west, waiting to be conquered & brought to heel.

i am of course not hostile to 'science' in any totalising way; this would be as indefensible a position as the automatic 'defence' of all such practices; they're not monolithic or intrinsically doomed to serve state interests. but it is simply irresponsible to pretend that the scientific inquiry into something---describing it, measuring it, taxonomising it---is inherently a social good, or that the pursuit of 'knowledge' is ever an apolitical endeavour. knowing, seeing, & measuring the world grant immense power; states and empires know this. scientific inquiry is not tangentially related to imperial and colonial expansion; often it is a critical piece of the machinery by which these processes occur. wilful ignorance of this fact in favour of an optimistic conception of science as a universal social good is not just inaccurate but propagandistic & an advancement of state & imperial interests.

nonspace.